love to everyone is a search, but when found, the next journey will begin
The person you are meant to be with is out there. They will understand your want to just read at home some nights, go to the gym to make yourself feel healthy, sit outside and have a cold beer looking at the stars, go on a shopping spree after getting a nice paycheck, they will watch your favorite movie twelve times a month because it makes you happy, and they will put you first when it comes to treating you right.
But none of this is right until you can do the same for them. You can’t do that until you truly love yourself and trust yourself to make decisions based on your needs.
If you can’t trust yourself, can you trust another person with your heart?
The amount of self talk I go through everyday is CRAZY to me. It can be so hard to be recovering from an eating disorder. I feel as though somedays I want to break away and eat whatever I want. Then other days I restrict just to feel the willpower that I used to have. I just want to be healthy. But I guess self talk can be healthy? I hope so, cause I am certainly getting very good at it.
Now to make sure I have no room for ED in my head, that would be bliss.